Davina is one of our new volunteers that feels so strongly God wants her ministering to abortion-minded mothers that she drives four hours each way to train with and volunteer with us. You will understand when you read her compelling story below.
It’s easy to give advice regarding what someone else SHOULD DO or what you believe you would do in their shoes, but it’s totally different when IT’S HAPPENING TO YOU. Because of fear, I acted in a way that was against everything I ever believed.
When we found out we had a little bun in the oven, I was 26, and freaking out! Michael, my boyfriend at the time, had the craziest nervous smile when he first saw the positive test, so the feelings were mutual.
We thought Michael medically “couldn’t” give me a child, and deceived ourselves that what we were doing was alright since we wouldn’t conceive. Boy, oh boy were we wrong on both accounts.
We talked ourselves into thinking abortion was the answer. We justified such a cruel act with promises to God that we’d never sin like that again, repenting, and begging for forgiveness for what we were about to do.
I cried myself to sleep every single night and felt sick to my stomach, not just from morning sickness, debating what to do. I wasn’t ready for a child. I didn’t have the career, insurance, relationship status, or home that I needed to have a baby. These were all lies we told ourselves.
We went to the abortion clinic for the initial consultation visit. This is the most disgusting and selfish thing I’ve ever done. We literally paid in full and listened to Satan on how all of this would be okay somehow. We prayed for forgiveness before walking in the clinic. They made it seem SO easy. You just take this pill, you’ll be out in no time, and it’s so much statistically safer than actually giving birth. WRONG.
After some SERIOUS alone time with God the night before “the procedure”, months of us not feeling right, crying, and praying all night, we canceled the appointment. We had no clue how it would work out at all. But, we made the hardest yet most fulfilling decision to trust God fully. Thank goodness we did because we would have missed our GREATEST blessing.
Don’t be so quick to judge someone else’s actions, or think that you’d do it SO differently. You have no clue what kind of distress that person is in, or how sneaky and conniving Satan can be. Instead, be that push that they may need to make the right decision when they’re on the fence and about to make the worst decision of their entire life. Every baby is a miracle and has a purpose. God wouldn’t grant such a miracle if he didn’t know the bigger, better picture.
The thought of our selfishness makes me sick. No one, I repeat NO ONE, can make me feel worse about those facts than what I’ve already felt. Still, I had to share what God did for me and put it out to the world to potentially help someone else.
Please think of how you can help others make the right decision when they are struggling. The right advice can be CRITICAL. Evil is in the world and can get to anyone, no matter how much you think you’re immune to it.
GOD BRINGS YOU THROUGH THINGS YOU THINK ARE IMPOSSIBLE IF YOU JUST RELY ON HIM AND HAVE COMPLETE FAITH THAT HE WILL PROVIDE YOU WITH THE RESOURCES YOU NEED, EVEN IF YOU CAN’T SEE HOW. The greatest blessing in your life comes when you grant HIM enough trust and just LISTEN.
God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. He is using Davina and all of our Cities4Life volunteers to bring His message of hope and LIFE to those that come to the local abortion centers. God will use you too. Please click one of the links below to get more information on how you can stand for LIFE in our city.