One of the best parts of being a part of Cities4Life is meeting people with so many diverse backgrounds and heartache that all have come to find healing and peace in the Lord. One of our new volunteers, Jessica, is a perfect example of how the Lord can use a hard past and turn ashes to beauty. Jessica shares her story with sincerity and honesty below.
My story: Jessica
When I was 16, I became pregnant with a boy my mom wasn’t particularly fond of. She wanted me to have an abortion. She took me to the clinic. Neither she nor I knew anything about abortion, other than friends telling me it was no big deal.
A month earlier, my best friend at the time had a baby. I asked her to go with me to the abortion clinic. Her baby was so cute and I longed for that. I refused to have an abortion. My mom was upset, but I didn’t care. I wanted my baby.
She is now 26 and married. I have a four month old granddaughter named Nova Sophia.
Fast forward a few years. At age 19, I was pregnant again with a different boyfriend. He was completely unstable. I didn’t want to be like many other girls I knew with two and three kids by that age. Still not knowing anything about abortion other than what my friends told me, I talked to my mom about it.
This time she said it was my decision. I thought abortion was the best decision.
I know now it was a terribly selfish decision. Not only does it take the life of a child, it leaves scars. I tried to cover them up, not talk about it. The pain, guilt, shame, and disbelief would come to mind every now and then. I would shove it all back down.
At the age of 23, I met Jesus. I asked him over and over to forgive me. Throughout the years, I know that He had, but I didn’t realize that I had never forgiven myself totally. Not until I went to Love Life’s prayer march on the street of the abortion center in November 2018. That was the day when I was totally set free from the shame, guilt, and sorrow.
I know Jesus Christ. It is so amazing the amount of horrible things we’ve done and still, He loves us and shows us unbelievable mercy. I volunteer with Cities4Life so I can share my story and this truth with the abortion-minded women.
God continually uses the past heartaches and struggles of our volunteers to draw the wounded and broken women to Him at the abortion center.I am in awe of how selflessly our volunteers share their scars to bring healing to others and to be an instrument God uses to save lives.
Everyone has a story. God can use all of us for His good purpose. What’s your story? God can use you. If you are interested in volunteering with us, for information, please click the volunteer button below.